Listening to Ed Sheeran

I went into town with Ella a week and a half ago – on Saturday 11th Feb. We had a lovely lovely lovely day together. We both had eye tests; I needed new glasses; Ella didn’t. She was a little bit gutted! We sat across […]

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Stop all the clocks

Here I am again on Tuesday 6th December 2011. My heart, throat and eyes so full behind the surface that I can hardly breathe, that I can hardly type, that I wonder at the tears not falling. I need to get this pain, this thorn, […]

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Threads

Hello! It’s Monday the 28th of November 2011. It’s quite cold, so we have the heating on. So Saturday was november 26th. 8 years since I got Ella back. And man does it still hurt. Still. David and I were talking about it last night. […]

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Junket milk

Curdle, the cuddle that girdles, until it thickens and sours, and what felt safe and lured me in makes me gag, spit, be sick. Did no-one know this intensity burns, like the stare in his eye: an intention, revelation, destruction? Did no-one dare to say, […]

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