Think Speak Run

This is me: Mally Tamale-Sali. I’m 33, I’m married to David – my absolute best friend on earth. I am a Christian – I don’t mean a religious, neat-at-the-edges person. I mean a vibrant follower of Jesus, whose life is messy round the edges in a good way – I don’t have it all figured out, and I’m actually starting to enjoy this adventure called life. I don’t think I’m boring. I’m just me. One thing those closest to me (for real, not through biological bonds) have always said about me is that I’m real. And I guess that’s what helps people decide if they like me or not- if you don’t like real, you probably won’t like me. If you don’t like truth, I can show you the door. I have to have truth. I grew up with lies; I’m an adult now and I choose truth. Jesus is the way, the TRUTH and the life. Knowing Him means knowing the truth….and that is what sets me free.

Two days ago I sat down and typed up the short version of my testimony to share in church yesterday. I got up and shared with everyone yesterday morning, which was daunting beforehand, and then amazingly releasing as I spoke it. I am free! I have never experienced this open freedom before. I have shared bits of my testimony and been so badly hurt by people’s responses and ignorance in the past that I didn’t dare share the whole truth for many years. I wrote 6 years ago about losing my daughter. I got shot down in flames by family and friends. Small wonder I didn’t dare say ‘but that isn’t all.’

So this is the start of a new season in my life – I am never going back to that closet of secrecy, shame and fear. I am living forward, on purpose, using what I have come through for good, to help others come through too. I am no longer bound.

I will share the book I wrote as well as other posts that I wrote connected to the story surrounding my daughter’s birth, (I have her back! …and have three gorgeous boys too!) and make sure that all my story is in this one place, with no more hiding.

At some point in the future I will again take up my running shoes, and run a marathon – that’s still a desire in me. However, I am pregnant again yippee!! So no running for a while! Maybe it’s the way I was reflecting on it this morning – I have done a lot of thinking. Yesterday I finally spoke. Later will be the time to run. I do not feel the need to run pain out of me. I used to, all the time. But I let some things go earlier this year, and that started me on this path to freedom. Think. Speak. Run.