Think Speak Run

Hi. I’m Mally. I’m 32, and I’m a wife and a mother of four. I love to sing, act and write. I love running, but am currently working to strengthen my core and recondition my body before attempting anything big…. I wanted to run the Cardiff Half Marathon last year but couldn’t, due to injury. My Physio has advised me to get back into regular exercise gently and gradually, starting with fast walking. Does the school run count?! ….I am speed-walking with weights – I LOVE my double pushchair, but including its occupants, it weighs around seven or eight stone. Not much less than me. Hmmmm. Maybe I’ll document my journey towards fitness here. It seems this is where I’m documenting all other journeys and paths towards fitness.

I am also a survivor of CSA, incest, C-PTSD, depression, PND (PPD), suicide attempts, loss. I think I do most of my thinking-speaking-running-singing-acting-writing as a response to that. This is who I am: Survivor. This is how I am Survivor: by being a thinker, speaker, runner, singer, actor, writer. This is where I am: in my life, being wife and Mummy, with all these facets and parts of me spilling out like jewels across a page. Maybe not where or how you’d expect to see beauty. Maybe not to your taste or liking. But here. Bold, brave, vibrant. Needing to be seen and heard. Silent too long. Dulled and hidden and hurt too long. Here now. Resilient. Alive. Me.

May Day 2014